Seregor’s eyes slowly slid open, staring groggily up at the ceiling.  With a tired moan he brought a hand up to his forehead, brushing back his damp hair.  His sleep had been one plagued with nightmares.  Beneath the blanket, his body was burning, cool beads of sweat upon his chest and legs.  All he could remember was fire.  It had been there during his entire slumber. 

                Sitting up with a bit of a struggle, he glanced about the dim room.  He’d made the move to new quarters, a somewhat large and fairly lavish bedroom.  Huge crimson curtains framed the bay windows, the walls lined with carvings of all sorts.  He swung his legs over the side of the bed, digging his toes into the soft carpet.  The faint orange glow of the sunset bathed the room, the crystals embedded in the marble columns that supported the room glittering brightly.  He rested his elbows upon his knees, burying his face in his hands as he shut his eyes.  His head was pounding.  His eyes were smoldering with weariness. 

                A yawn escaped his mouth as it stretched open, his hand moving up to stifle it as second nature.  His dreams grew worse each day since his meeting with Zefrenilx, Aertha, and Orthynx, the one which he left early due to sickness.  He’d told them that it was just his wound acting up, and that he simply needed to get some more rest.  If the injury did have something to do with it, he was not aware.  The news that Zefrenilx had delivered to him was far too much for him to handle.  Rathernal had ordered all of the non-drow wounded being cared for in the castle put to death.  Seregor had awoken the next evening to catch glimpse of a pile of bodies stacked in the courtyard which lay in the castle’s center.  All of them were sun elves.

                That had been four days ago, four days which were nearly sleepless due to the reoccurring dreams that plagued him.  Visions of intense flames and the blood-curdling sounds of people screaming in agony, their anguish piercing his soul.  That was all his time in the world of dreams had yielded.  Perhaps it might not have been quite so troubling were not for the notion that lurked in the back of his mind at all times, surfacing fully during the horrid images.  The fires were due to his order.  The people cried out due to his command to seize their lives.  Their suffering belonged to him, for he had caused every moment of it.  As payment, his head was now hell.

                At least when he was awake he had a fighting chance against guilt.  It always lingered, but he was able to push it out of focus when conscious. Other things would move up to fill the gap; the drow war effort, the current state of health his dear friend Dauth was in, and Aertha.  First and foremost was the war, though he did not appreciate the fact.  For whatever reason, he believed that through successful end of the war, all his other problems would evaporate.  There would be only happiness and peace after the destruction and bloodshed.  It could be no other way.  Why else would soldiers look forward to finally laying down their arms, forgetting the word enemy, and marching back home to their families?  Certainly not because more battles were left to be fought in their homes.

                Peace was guaranteed after the war.  Seregor couldn’t imagine it any other way.  The irony of war had long before presented itself to him.  The goal of conflict was peace.  The very peace that this war had broken was all along the aim of those that fought in it.  There were no exceptions.  It was sad that securing peace cost so much blood.  But it was simply the harsh reality of the matter.

                He decided that his mind had wandered quite enough, and rose with a grunt.  His feet carried him towards the balcony.  Watching the sun set in the brilliantly painted sky would calm his nerves.  Stepping out into the refreshing air, a breeze wrapped around him.  It caressed his skin, the soft embrace of the wind cooling his body.  Far over the golden fields of crops the sun sunk sleepily beneath the horizon, the clouds high above already black in the spreading twilight.  Night slowly crept across the heavens, curling fingers of darkness about the land. Seregor let a sigh slip between his lips nonchalantly as he closed his eyes and reared his head back.

                The past few weeks had been far to fast for his tastes.  Everything had shot by, everything had happened with such incredible speed that he wasn’t even sure if any of it was real.  It was only the pain that let him know.  Yes, it did happen.  The physical and emotion torment he had experienced was far too intense to have been a bad dream or a figment of his imagination.  He just wished that he had time to think things out, time to make decisions for himself.  Everything had been forced upon him.  He had no choice in any of it.  If he was allowed to choose, he’d have died the night they attacked the village.  He wouldn’t have escaped with Dauth.  Another could have done that.  Seregor would have died that night, the final release of life that he knew he deserved. 

                A knock upon the door pulled him from his thoughts, ripping him out of whatever it was he had been pondering.  Whatever was on his mind didn’t matter, of that he was certain.  He was a pawn and would always be one.  There was no way to escape his role.  His eyes scanned the dark landscape that was sprawled out before him, looking for some way out.  There was none to be found.  “The only path before me is the one tread by slaves, and the forest is too thick to cut myself a new one,” he said softly to himself, his gaze floating once more to the sky.  He let out another light sigh, before a second knock finally returned his attention to the visitor.  Slowly, almost gloomily, he walked back inside and to the door.

                It creaked faintly as he swung it open, revealing the one who had knocked.  One of Rathernal’s generic servants, looking very much like all the rest.  As usual, the young drow’s gaze was averted, as it was supposedly a sign of respect.  Seregor, of course, was the leader of the new army, superior to all others in the castle save Rathernal himself, and thus all servants had to treat him respectfully and be humble in their service.  More useless formalities that only made Seregor feel worse off than he was to begin with.  He’d always hated upper class life because of all the etiquette, titles, and pretenses that came along with it.  If one was a member of the nobility, that person was respectable.  It was based on nothing else but birth.  If one was born a noble, they were the best the world had to offer. 

                Giving himself a mental shake, Seregor returned his attention to the servant at the door.   “Yes?  What is it?”

                “My lord,” the servant said in a shaky voice, likely being a bit nervous in the presence of such an important figure.  If only the youth knew that Seregor was little more than a figurehead.  He glanced down to the servants extended hand, which held a folded parchment.  “A letter for you.  I was told to bring it with all haste, I hope that I did not take too long, my lord.”

                Accepting the letter, Seregor nodded.  He had begun to pity the servant almost as much as he pitied himself.  “Thank you.  I will be sure to notify your master of the excellent job you did in getting this letter to me.”

                “No, thank you my lord,” the servant replied, a satisfied smile upon his face as he dipped into a low bow.  In a moment, he had turned and begun away, heading down the hall and out of sight.  Seregor bit his lip and closed the door, careful not to create a great deal of noise in doing so.  One thing he had learned was that the hallway magnified every sound tenfold, certainly a disturbance to any nearby.

                He flipped the letter over in his hands, examining it as he made his way to the desk on the far wall.  The seal of Zefrenilx was upon it, holding the letter closed in red wax.  For a brief moment, he was sure it had to be important, especially if Zefrenilx had to relay the information by letter.  Then the realization dawned on him.  Rathernal controlled every little bit of the castle, especially the scores of servants.  To send information by letter, and have it delivered by one of Rathernal’s own loyal subjects, would be madness.  How could one trust the people of a house when not even the walls could keep a secret?  It was likely a trivial matter that was not even of enough significance for Zefrenilx to notify Seregor of personally.  Picking up a dagger that rested upon the desk, he broke the seal and unfolded the letter, his eyes drifting over the neat runes within.

 

To Master Seregor Itheax,

                Several matters have been brought to my attention that I felt you should be made aware of.  I humbly regret not being able to discuss them with you in person, but I am afraid that Rathernal has asked me to train young Orthynx in the arts of war.  The lad is, sadly, highly inexperienced with such things, and requires guidance in such matters.  Originally, it was proposed by our Lord that you school the youth, but I explained that you had not been feeling well as of late and would not be able to do so to the best of your abilities.  I certainly do not want you burdened with this boy.  You need to let your mind settle, and your thoughts be straightened.

                I have received news that Rathernal has scheduled a meeting for the end of the week.  He wishes to discuss battle plans, and has hopes of mobilizing the soldiers at the castle within a fortnight.  That would mean combat for all of yet again, and far too soon, I fear.  Prepare yourself, for I have an unfortunate premonition that Rathernal will be focusing his attentions on you.  We both are aware of his delight in putting people under pressure, and this will be his first opportunity to do so to you in several days.  Should I not speak to you before this meeting, I wish you strength.

                Some better news for you, perhaps.  I have gotten word from the healers that your friend, Dauth I believe, awoke around midday.  They did not want to disturb your slumber, and thus you have not yet been informed.  Perhaps, upon reading this letter, you will go and pay him a visit.  Seeing those close to you strengthens the soul, and after what he has been through, I am certain that can be of great help.  Word is that he may be up and walking before tomorrow evening, and able to fight within a week.  His speedy recovery is a blessing.  I have heard much of the great skill you both wield in battle, and look forward to witnessing it firsthand once we do return to fight.

                I must close this letter now, as Orthynx will be arriving at my door any moment.  He is not the most perceptive youth I’ve known, but we cannot risk him even suspecting anything.  Good luck Seregor.  I certainly hope that you feel better soon.

 

Most sincerely,

Zefrenilx

 

                The news about Dauth cancelled out every other word in the letter.  Seregor’s heart swelled with joy for the first time in days.  His friend was alive and quickly recovering.  He would not have to fight alone.  Images flashed through his mind of the memories he and Dauth had shared, of the good times they had together.  Without his dear friend, Seregor had felt incomplete.  Something had been missing.  Knowing that Dauth was in danger of losing his life was too much.  They had shared childhoods, they had known each other since before either could speak.  Recent events had caused Seregor to forget all this, to forget the person that had always been there for him.

                Moving to the dresser, he began to change out of his sleeping attire and into normal clothing.  His heart raced with anticipation.  He would finally have a person he really knew to talk to.  He could finally see his friend again.  Not the bundle of bandages they had said was Dauth.  He swallowed loudy as he buckled his belt.  The excitement was almost unbearable.  Finally, he was not alone.  Everything else was unimportant.  He was going to see Dauth.